I got to my session and the first thing T says is that she talked to my insurance and that I have 6 more sessions until January!!! I thought they changed it so there is an unlimited number of sessions, but apparently not. This is Blue Cross/Blue Shield. They gave me 10 more sessions, but that started 4 weeks ago.

You can imagine that didn't make me feel too good. T. said we'd work it out. Ha! Not with my H so much against therapy. She said to call insurance and see what I can find out.

I cried when I got to my car and then called. I got a slightly more optimistic answer. T has to pre cert, like she did for the extra 10 sessions and insurance gets to approve or deny it. They wouldn't tell me on what grounds they would do so. I know T tried to make it sound bad. Said PTSD which she really believes I have, and depression.

So, I called her AND emailed already with my news. I feel a little better but it's still a shock that they don't cover mental health sessions indefinitely like I thought I read somewhere.

As far as my session, no hand holding, but we talked about it, and my past, and how my wires get crossed. I felt a little distant, maybe because of the insurance problem. She thought EMDR next time would be a good idea. I felt good that I was perfectly honest with her, though! I told her exactly how I felt last session, and no, she won't hold me. Hugs when I leave, or holding my hands, are okay, though I didn't want a hug. So at least I know what her boundaries are.