Thanks Eskielover xx

For the past 9 months I have keep my heart in a locked box (well it was ripped out, burnt and kicked to the gutter) to protect myself. When I met this guy it all seemed so wonderful, like we had known each other for much longer than we actually had. He seems genuine.. I am just so frightened of getting hurt again, and now I have (stupidly??) let my heart feel something for him.. I feel so paranoid about getting hurt again.
I just wish the doubts about myself trusting my own choices would go away. 99% of the time I think that everything is as it should be, loving and nice (what I think I deserve)... then the little voice says, how can this be perfect?? There has to be something wrong here, you don't get into a relationship this easily, it can't be this perfect, this guy is just going to hurt you..