Oh God, that is the worst part. It comes in waves and waves and here we are trapped in its grip. What is that awful force that makes the pain stick like this? It's SO UNFAIR to have to relive, relive, relive it. I have absolutely no words for this.. it's awful and I'm sorry it's happening to you. It's awful and I can't wait to hear from you when the story is told and you're REALLY not alone with it.. and I'm looking forward even more to the day you come on PC and you can really say you have found deep healing for this pain.