Alcohol or dope can't do anything TO me unless it does something FOR me first.
In each generation something like 5% to 7% of the population have an unnatural reaction to mood altering substances. And that reaction is it turns an otherwise bland existence into a Technicolor world.

It lets me feel like other people look to me. Complete and whole.

You may or may not be an in trouble, you may or may not be relying on alcohol and reefer to improve your view of the world, and no one can tell you if the stuff is interfering in your life.

But time can tell.

Given enough time and it will make itself abundantly self clear if you are one of us or not.

Over any appeasable length of time it only gets worse, it never gets better. In fact, in most cases, it gets real bad before something changes.
You'll know what you are in time.

I hope you find yourself among the normal people,
But if not, remember that AA or NA is that last house on the block for people like us.

On the road to the good stuff,
Richard S.