Hey Green. ..

we talked about this some the other day in chat, remember? I think you are worrying WAY too much about what other people think, will think, or don't think about you my love. You're obviously of legal age to obtain medicine w/o your parent's consent, so don't worry about telling them if you don't want to. Simple.

To address an issue that raises my concern for you. . . one thing that I have heard over and over from you is how other people "make" you feel a certain way or do certain things. Greenleaves. . .we are all responsible for our OWN feelings. Another person cannot "make" you hurt yourself. You said this:
"People really do push me to kill myself sometimes. They don't mean to do it, but they do. Things get dangerous because I have to prove that I really am suffering by hurting myself." This is a false belief hon. You do NOT have to prove your suffering to ANYONE, and certainlly not by hurting yourself. That is a choice. One I realize that you feel is often made for you, but a choice nonetheless that YOU are making for yourself.

Please PLEASE consider finding a therapist to counsel with Greenleaves. There is so much going on inside of you. And never EVER be ashamed for needing chemical assistance for a MEDICAL problem.

And by the way. . .FYI. . .Gracey takes Seroquel (an antipsychotic) 25mgs a night to help sleep. So don't sweat the fact you're on an antipsychotic, and don't stereotype yourself either.

(((((huggles))))

Gracey