i am not feeling well...there is no one to talk to, i lost 4 more pounds....no-one cares, right now everyone is starting to see this gloom on my face, i just want to talk with some one, i have to let this all out of me...i am going to explode...whats the point anymore..i cannot pick myself up and get on with this life of mind...i will never be happy...you know its funny everyone , looks to me to be the strong one...they rally around me , as if i'm some sort of hereo to them...this is insane, maybe they have no lives, and need to feed off of mine...why...i really am week and can't find a solution to my problems...i am starting to get incoherant...it is all to much for me .....