I will chk the link, ty. She may have just been trying to keep me from freaking out worse than I was, idk. I was pretty shaken, I have never been awake and aware of them before. I have always seen the in my dreams and had at one time ( shorlty after mom's death) been unable to use the word "I"...it always came out "we" and "us".
I know I have had lost time, but it is only for a few mins , never longer. Idk, it is all so confusing.
But I really do appreciate the info and comments, they really help...this is very new ground for me.
I think it scares me so badly because my mom had a thing for scarey movies when I was a kid. I was taken to see Jaws when I was very little. (We never went to walk in theaters) and I spent half the time in the bathroom. She loved the movies Carrie & Sybil. Sybil really scared me, I was quite young.
But hugs to all and all within...I am grateful.
I no very little about DID, except for the little I ahve delt with in my dreams and the dissociation I have been through.
Another reason I may be terrified of this is my Dad. He is someone that could kill and not remember....I have SEEN his eyes change when he disscociates. He terrifies me, even now. It is like a switch in his head goes adn my dad instantly becomes something else....the boggie man/the monster.( he is not my bio father, so there is no genetic componant). But it still scares me.
I guess to sum it up, I am afraid of becoming my parents.