Hmm, I want to say something helpful. But I am not sure how to put it. I have ALOTof personal experience with this kind of relationship. I push guys away, become cold and distant, followed by a period of wanting to be with them all the time?

From what u share, it sounds like there may be a similar pattern going on here?
I read a book once called The Dance of Anger, and it talked about this "push me, pull me" pattern that can happen in some relationships. You become emotionally hypersensitive after awhile from this stuff, at least I know I do, because the uncertainty kills me. Then my moods and happiness become directly related to whether or not my boyfriend loves me, instead of how I am feeling about myself. As a result, by isolating myself and interracting with just him, all the time, I end up being clingy, needy, etc.

But, when I spread my wings and start making new friends, I get more balanced, have a more neutral perspective, and my entire self-esteem is not based solely on him, which is better I think.

Just remember that you are a special, valid person who's only limits on her potential are the ones you set on yourself. So, if you tell yourself that your boyfriend is the alpha and the omega, then you are limiting your own potential as a human being to grow in a balanced, healthy way.