I do have so many of the symptoms, maybe I need to disclose more with T. I am a professional, so "looking" normal is one of my strongest abilities and my biggest downfalls.

I had an awareness of this several years ago. I was working in the ER. We had a terrible wreck happen in the area and we had several people in truama rooms and some where children. Things were moving very quickly and everythign was chaos. One nurse looked at me and said something I will never forget. She said, "I wish I was more like you!" I froze, puzzled...asking what she meant. She said, "You are always so calm and collected, nothing makes gets to you." I had to laugh. I asked her if that was really what she saw and she said yes. I told her it was only a mask...that on the inside I was screaming and running in circles with my hands flaying in the air! Then she laughed and said, "Wow, really? That makes me feel so much better." Go figure, lol.....boggles my mind.