Someone may love you and still not be with you. It sounds as though he has been repeating that he doesn't want to be in a relationship and he needs time and wants to be just friends. Apparently he does still care but as a couple to him its not working(or whatever his reason for the breakup) you've been asking very specific questions about how he feels and either he is being honest or he's trying to let you down easy. Its hard to let go when you care for someone. Give it some time. Perhaps you will get back together perhaps you will be able to be just friends perhaps you two will just go your own way. Whatever happens was supposed to happen. The opportunities that are opening up to you right now will give you a chance to work through your depression and start finding things you enjoy to do. Accept change happens and most times its for the best.