I hear you. It may be a dellusion but if it gives us the help we need now we will be in a better place to decide what to do as time goes on. I know I have read a lot of post of folks who have thought this way only to relapse soon after going off the meds.

I think the best strategy is to do what is necessary now and cross that other bridge when I get to it.

Good luck with your med treatment. I hope it gets you to the place you want to be that will provide you a better quality of life then you have without the meds. That is my hope for all of us. I know I am done fighting the meds. I am afraid of the journey towards finding the right meds and the right combination.... the horror stories of this process has feed my med phobia but I am choosing to believe it will all come out right in the end. I pray I am lucky enough to find the right meds sooner rather than later.