that's why she called, to give me the numbers of 2 other Ts in her practice. I have met them both in group and they are nice and I'm sure they would be fine to call if I needed to, but they are not my T. You know?

I think I could still call my T this afternoon if I can figure out what I need to hear from her before she leaves. I think I want to call and say I'm freaking out and I need her to tell me that I'll be okay. I'm torn between doing that and just trying to push through that urge and go it alone and SEE that I will be okay.

But I'm afraid if I don't call her today while I can then I will really regret it later when I won't have the option of calling. Basically just freaking out.