thanks dexter and bipolar bear for ur input. I did talk to my boss about what happened. We both think that i mentally exhausted myself with all the negative thoughts going through my head. I did tell my boss about how i just kept on saying these negative things in my head over and over. I also told her that it might help to educate all my coworkers and staff about bipolar. She thought that is a good idea. She said that some of the girls as she calls us are worried about me. I told her that i havent come out of the closet with my diagnosis cause i thought it wouldnt get worse due to my meds and all. Sadly i was wrong i admit. So we talked alot about how if i start to get mentally stressed out or if i go into another depression spell that i can call her and take time off from work. Well thats good but i know i will never take that offer. I am to much like a donkey iwill keep working. As long as my work is not effected i will keep on working. I just know i need two days off a week i cant pull a 7 dayier.