It scares me when I just go numb inside. When the thoughts finally seems settled on ONE thing...and that thing isn't the best option but the feeling and confidence I have in choosing that ONE thing is beyond belief and I am ok with that decision.

My head isn't spinning today. I am numb. I have decided to stop seeing my pdoc as I do not believe in taking medication anymore. I believe it is poisoning me and not helping and my pdoc doesn't know anything about me but just puts me on the lastest and newest meds.

My head isn't spinning today...that is what scares me the most!