had a really bad T appt. today. i kept telling her i wanted to leave and started to leave and she wouldn't let me. She wanted me to stay and talk to her about what is going on. i couldn't tell her the new memory cause i don't think it's true. she told me how upset i was and the look on my face told her that i wasn't making it up. i hate memories and i want no more to do with them. i can't deal with this anymore and while in t session i was hurting myself...i didn't realize it till she was telling me to stop.
and last night got in a fight w/cousin and she just got really mad at me and told me i was having a pitty party...i told her it's true, and told her i know i have good things happening and should be happy and greatful, i am greatful, but not happy. i just didn't talk to her after that and i don't know if i can for a while.
anyways, i don't even know if any of this makes sense to anyone.
jen