Today I'm in Sad Land because I'm going on holiday tomorrow and I really don't want to. It means I'm missing a meeting uppy thing with loads of my friends, who I haven't seen for ages, and won't get to see again for ages. So I'm really dwon about that. And I've never wanted to go on this holiday, and I told the mother that all along, but I wasn't allowed to not go because it's meant to be her birthday treat. And I feel so selfish and so guilty and so bad because I've made her not want to go now too. I'm a disgusitngly horribly selfish person and I don't deserve to go on holiday, and I don't deserve friends to have the chance to meet up with, even though I can't. Ugh, I feel yucksome and blah. I think I could solve all this so easily...it would just relax me so much more and stop me from feeling so rough if I just cut...but I'm not gonna go on about that in Sad Land.

Tamzin the Terrible, sulking, brooding...lounging around in her pit of misery, AKA her bedroom, and wondering why she's alive...