Your last post disturbed me. You must have family and friends that can support you.
We have all had suicidal thoughts at one time or another. The thing is, PC has so many people that care. It was brave of you just to share your story. When we share our stories we help others in the process. Thanks people for so many good ideas for dealing with anxiety.
Feary.....keep going to yoga.Things will get brighter for you the more you go.
You have made that first hurdle. Keep it up.