I'm feeling lame. I got news today that I'm definitely hypothyroid and it's no longer related to the lithium I'd taken last winter. So I'll have to be on meds for life, but at least there is a solution. Why I feel lame: I read my self-help book, then as a reward I play a video game. That's what's been taking up most of my days lately. I'm just not imaginative enough to do much of anything else. My anti-depressant is working, so I don't feel bad about wasting my days on whatever. But I want to care and I want to be more productive at creative writing. My focus is so limited though. Should I feel guilty?