Jaikhan..I don't like seeing women get hurt by guys that are intentionally hurting them. This is you he is hurting. I don't feel it is right. I am a woman and I am a mother. It saddens me to know that you are going through this. There are steps to take so you don't have to feel bad don't have to feel messed up. Don't deserve those things. That's why it is now up to you to take the necessary steps to keep you happy and safe