rainbow I think even when I am not struggling so much I will struggle to let go of therapy. Without therapy, what happens rainbow? When you don't see a T, does your life change in any way? How does it change?

sunrise, whoa. Thank you for that post especially this: Perhaps "seeking" in therapy has allowed you to be more or less "still" in real life

I think being in therapy allows me to play out my drama so my IRL relationships aren't affected so much. So I think it will be hard for me to let go of therapy because being there is like a release for all the pent-up stuff that would otherwise ruin things in my real life. When I am not in T, I get uncontrollably obsessed with someone else besides a T. Does that happen for you, rainbow? If it's going to go somewhere, best it goes to someone who knows how to help.