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Originally Posted by Amazonmom
Did you know it's okay to be needy, emotional, and messy at times?
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thanks for that, amazon. I'm working on being more accepting of myself where I am, vs where I wish I was.
So, my T called me back and she said she can't guarantee that I'll be okay but she is confident I will be.
She said she understands why it's scary for me to know she's going to be out of touch. That helped a lot, because as I told her, I have a hard time with feeling like I
need her or depend on her. I don't like that, but it's where I am right now. I told her I don't want to be that person that's freaking out b/c their therapist is out of town. But...I AM that person. There are worse things.
I told her to have a good weekend away. It was a really good conversation and I feel a lot better. I'm pretty sure I'll be okay. And I really hope I didn't just jinx myself, lol.
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I also wondered if it helped to call those other Ts in her absence. It is good sometimes to have a wider network of support and a different kind of input into one's problems and state of mind. If you can learn to trust them it will take some pressure off you and reduce anxiety and distress during her absences.
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oops, I forgot I was going to say, she also reminded me that I can call one of the other Ts while she's gone. I was so busy being freaked out that she was leaving that I wasn't thinking much about the fact that she didn't leave me just high and dry. I know both the other Ts and have talked to them each on the phone in the past, so I know I will be ok calling one of them if I need to. I think it was the idea that I CAN'T call my T that freaked me out, when in reality I may not have called her anyway.
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