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May I ask what you mean by – if only?
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well.....

... I don't talk about it much, I find it a bit embarrassing to not have better insight and also, many here seem to be so intuned to what's going on inside themselves..... I fear saying something that would sound dumb.
..... it's just,
I often struggle with - if the voices
are correct or not.(that's what I mean by-- "if only"-- if only I could truly feel they are not true) I heard the things they say in my head, from others when I was a child and was accused of being a horrible person when I'd not done anything bad-- some just needed a scapegoat or one to have control over and to vent their anger on a smaller being.
Since I've been working real hard in therapy-- seems the voices have been also putting in overtime to confuse and twist things around...... it's like the body is on a spinning top, so hard to see things clearly

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but I'm not giving up yet

hope that wasn't too long..... just hoped to explain it clearly.
again-- I think it's so so wonderful how much work you have accomplished for yourself
respectully,
fins