T finally emailed me. Her email is bittersweet, makes me happy and sad. She said if insurance won't pay she'll find a fee that will work for me.

She liked the article that I posted the link to, above, and said we can do something like the "teddy bear" idea if I want. I kNEW she was THAT kind of T.

I'm supposed to separate the parts that are making me depressed from the others: "they're parts, not all of you."

She's happy I started going to yoga because it will help create a "self" that will lead the parts. IFS is about self-leadership, she says.

She hoped today was better. I don't want to wreck it by emailing back and saying that it was NOT a better day. I didn't get that job, and I waited for her email all day. Well, I did make part of me go to exercise and do errands. I'm trying. T is an optimistic person. I'm glad she doesn't hate me or want to stop seeing me because of my "weirdness."

The sad part is that she's still only T, and wants me to be happy in my RL. I SHOULD want that. That's the sad part. Yes, PART of me wants T and not RL. But that's only one part of me.

If anyone can read the article, I'd be interested in feedback.