oh wow. i get how ur feeling.
i used to have CONSTANT disgusting/sexual/innappropriate thoughts as well - as if it was my condition punishing me, making me feel pathetic and weird.
i used to have them all the time but now i only have 1 or so innapropriate thoughts a day as i quickly dismiss them as silly and not me talking.
i did tell my psychiatrist about this as hard as that was. i felt disturbed and weird but he didn't seem to be phased by it - he must hear it all.
he said it was a form of OCD.
i have since been diagnoed with soft bipolar and major depressive disorder.
these thoughts are only such a minor part of what i go through, hence why i don't think anything of them anymore.
they're not relevant. i think me thinking this has made me have these thoughts less frequently.
i urge u to tell a psychologist about this. i promise you it will help.
they have heard it all before.
mental health is a complex thing. trust me, u need to tell someone about these thoughts so they don't happen so much
hope i helped
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