Hello! Thank you all for responding, i really appreciate it <3. I have more to this though:

I have had some contact with him, from my side. I met him at a busstop once, on accident, and i stepped up to him. The conversation went as followed:
Kira: "Hey!"
Ex: *raises hand sadly*
Kira: "How are you?"
Ex: "hmm.. it's okay" *sad look*
Kira: "Yeah same here, kind of okay" *tries smile and grabs his hand* "You know i very much love you right? You know that".
Ex: *stays silent and gets tears in his eyes*
Kira: *puts hand on his cheek* "Come by tomorrow or something okay? I hope you will".
Ex: "Maybe, i'll see."

He didn't come, but okay. The next while he had been quiet, and i decided to text him something. Asking him if we could have a talk, from adult to adult. The night after he sent me this:

"I've asked you before, and it hurts to ask again but.. Could you let me go my own path, for just a while? I mean, i have a lot on my mind and i have a lot to process, not just our things, also other not so fun stuff.. I'm sorry you need to tell me something so badly but i really can't do this.. Everything around me is falling apart and i just can't handle it right now so please.. Let me be with myself for a moment.."

This mail confuses me. All the 'for now, for a moment, right now" etc. It sounds like he's emotionally confused, needs time for himself, but isn't quite ready to just let go of me. Or well, that's how i know him. I mailed him back that i would be there for him, he could call or whatever if he wanted to. And i hoped he would, just as me, want a break and not a break-up. Because he never responds to that question.

I am going away this weekend, asked him to text me if he liked, because i'm very worried. I am trying to be there for him all the way. What do you guys think about this email and stuff? It sounds like there is some major confusion going on in him, and he just needs to figure it out. And then he'll want to come back..