thanks for the encouragement. I haven't really gotten past the "trying to make a good impression" thing that I always do. I was raised in a political family and taught to be proper at all times. So, I have yet to tell new T how depressed I currently am. I wouldn't feel comfortable calling him or anything. He did point out his email address on the business card and said something like "this is a great way to contact me". I haven't ever contacted any T other then to schedule/cancel appts.

I kind of feel like a little turtle, poking my head out for a few minutes then yanking it swiftly back to safety the moment things look a little scary.