((((((((((happybunny)))))))))
My parents always put something or someone else before me, too. I know your feelings of hopelessness very well. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that their version of normal really isn't very normal at all. You are important and you matter. I know it may be hard to see right now. Have you tried talking to you mother? I know I never could talk to mine because she didn't want to hear anything I had to say. This may be the case with you, too. Just keep posting here, and know that we care about you. You can send me a Pm anytime you need to, ok? Take gentle care of you.