Stardust welcome to the thread, it is very active. Is there not any way you can call your pdoc and let him/her no that you are crashing. I'm sorry that you are going through this and that it is effecting your schooling.

Denise26 it is wonderful that you can enjoy the little things in life even if it is for a passing moment. Wishing you well.

Amy22 welcome to the thread. Sorry you feel like you are going to vomit. I hope your dog will be ok.

PT52 sorry life is up and down for you right now. Don't let the FDB get you to down. Hoping things will work out in the end for you.

I'm still in the mode of just existing. I'm finding it harder and harder to have my husband away. I know he trying to do the best for the family, but I don't know how much longer I can hang in there. It is getting difficult to deal with the kids and all there crap. I just want to scream on the top of my lungs for them to get over their malfunctions. I can't deal with the quarreling and my son's I can't do this attitude or the constant complaining of him not liking what is for dinner. I feel like a ticking time bomb and I am going to explode at any given second. I really don't know how to handle myself right now. I just wish I could climb into bed and sleep my life away. On the up side I did accomplish vacuuming the floor this morning, it really needed it. Why do I have to struggle just to do the daily things that need to be done? Writing this just makes me feel like crying. I feel so inadequate right now. I am having a difficult time playing mom and my children don't deserve that. I just want to be functional.