Hi everyone,

I haven't left my bed at all today, and I am just going to stay here. I can't stand myself and hate for all that i have done. I want to curl up in a ball and hide. I don't want to bother anyone anymore with my stuff, and I don't want to go back to T next week.
my T told me to call if I really need to and if I had bad thoughts. I told her I was never calling her again when i left and didn't give her a chance to say anything about that. I feel bad for getting so angry at her, but what is calling her going to do? I need to just deal with this on my own from now on.
jen