vjd: hugs to you for keeping things together even though you feel like you're at the edge. I hope you can get a meds change soon because it doesn't sound like your combo is helping as much as it should. Let us know if there's anything we can do. It's okay to cry if you need to.

Me: Was feeling fine when I got out of bed and for the next hour. Then I started having thoughts about self-harm that are very specific. I thought about getting the sharp kitchen knife and using it on myself. This is unusual, but not unheard of in my brain. I've never actually followed through with it. I don't understand why thoughts like that enter my mind. I'm not actually scared or anything, just a little concerned. It's not even like I'm upset and there's nothing on my schedule for today except therapy at 2pm. I have most of the day to relax. WTF is wrong with me?