I agree it's not good to call yourself names and no death isn't the solution at all. If you're in school, the most important thing for you to do, is concentrate on that. It's so important to get your education so you never have to be dependent on anyone.

Forget about men for now and when you're in a healthier state of mind, look for guys who are kind and treat women with respect. Are you on medication for depression? If not you should make an appt. with your family doctor because you sound depressed. Most of us ladies here have plenty of life experience and we can all tell you - you can't let relationships or lack of relat. get you down. Life gives us punches and we need to get up and move on. You can over come this bad period.