Thanks Rhiannon and Sunset!

I am so grateful to you. It is funny yesterday was a really busy day for me. I usually don't accomplish all that much. So, I have been pushing myself to get up, get going, get out of the house, get out of my head. And it has worked! This website helps me so much.

This morning I woke up having another imaginary conversation with my ex in my head. You know, the argument that never got resolved? Part of my brain thinks that if he could just get help and get on the right meds, he would get better. And then I wake up, and realize I have been indulging in fantasy land again.

It is frustrating, but thanks to the mood tracker this is not surprising? A period of increased activity (say sub-manic) for several days, good stuff, but this relapse into old thinking should be expected.

This is where I envy those who can tolerate psych meds. I know I can get out of my head, but it is easy to just sit in it sometimes. This is also where I envy those in AA who just jump on the phone and call somebody in sobriety or go to a meeting. The last three days I have been very proactive about that and now today, I can't seem to even text out my usual "Good morning!" message.

Just to let somebody know I am alive and still kicking....

In AA, we say the key to self-pity is to help another person. So, time to hit the new members forum and help somebody else. I know I have nothing to complain about. But, thanks for listening.