One thing that bothered me on my session yesterday (and that probably has stirred up these abandonment feelings) is that when my t came out to get me for my appt, she stood at the receptionist's desk and whispered with her for like 5 minutes straight. I could tell they were talking about somebody else, but really didn't know what about and was trying not to listen. But it was cutting into my appt time. And i felt like . . .i was imposing by having my appt. . .like i just wanted to get out of there. If felt like somebody else was more important at the time and that my t needed/wanted to focus on them and not me.

I didn't say anything to my t about it because i realize things come up. And because t was so good to me last week by having our little "celebration" of tea and a roll. But it was just a yucky feeling when she let it cut into our session time. So combined with her wanting to retire and help children in need, i felt that awful abandonment twang again. and i just hate it!!! It's everywhere i turn it seems. Every time i turn around, i'm feeling rejection/abandonment with my t, yet i know it's MY problem and not hers. How do i stop feeling this way??