Hi everyone,

I've posted a couple times before but am fairly new here...I just could really use some advice right now.

I've been seeing my therapist for almost a year now, but there was a big gap (about 5 months) when I was in treatment. It has taken me a really long time to trust her, even though she is amazing, and we are only just starting to discuss some REALLY difficult things...things I've never shared with anyone before.

It is completely throwing off everything in my life. I am just starting a new job and having a hard time being present; all I can think about is hard stuff and I am constantly freaking out, crying, not sleeping, etc...

My therapist has told me to e-mail/call her anytime I am struggling. She is very good about responding, and after some hesitation at the beginning I have started to e-mail her pretty regularly. I've only called her once (when I was in extreme crisis), but lately it seems like I've been e-mailing her almost every other day.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to become dependent on her, and I don't want to bother her or her to get sick of me because I am constantly struggling. I HATE to think that I am a burden, the kind of client that she thinks, "Oh great, HER again" every time she gets an e-mail in her inbox. I really try hard not to e-mail unless I don't know what else to do to ground myself and calm down, but with the way things are right now, this seems like all the time.

Does anyone else have advice or experience with things like this?? It would help me a lot to get outside input...thank you!!!