((AmDaws)) - I think we do have a purpose and it changes as we grow up and mature. For me, my purpose at this time in my life is to raise my daughters the best I can and to find peace with myself.

I would truly love to be where you are right now. Have you ever read about 'mindfulness' - living in the moment and making the best of that time. For now put aside all your problems and ENJOY Scotland with your father and brother. I think it would be a terrible waste to let yourself be pre-occupied with your friends and ex-partner - it's irrelevant what they think.

It's pointless to compare your looks to others - especially if you're overly critical of yourself. All you can do is be the best you can be. Don't even bother to look at models or movie stars - after 2 hrs of hair and makeup then photo shopping the pics....even they don't look like that IRL lol. Your self worth isn't found in looks or a relationship. You can still take care of yourself and be the best you can be. You need to learn to be content with yourself and feel complete on your own. That way if a person does disappoint you, you'll be okay.