Very true... i do pull back but he senses it and when he said that we really do need to communicate and that it is the most important thing in a relationship especially ours as he is far away I felt happy.. okay so I get embarrassed having all these 'baby meltbowns' when he is away... and he mentioned it last night too - just telling me to stay happy as he wasn't going anywhere.. I blush and hate that I told him everything about how I was feeling, especially when it doesn't seem like a huge issue and makes me feel weird..

But deep down inside it is a big issue to me.. so I am glad that I have you guys on here to help me through it

Thanks everyone!