I understand exactly how you feel & will give you huge Hugs:
(((((NatureFreak)))))

Lucky, that fall feeling in the air hasn't hit here in KY yet. For me, it hit 5 years ago when I went through all the trauma with the home care person for my mother who was dying of cancer. On top of that, my new foal that had been born the end of September cut her leg, so I was nursing that cut 2 times a day while driving 1 hour to try & make sure my Mother was & the stress was causing me to feel so sick, I was loosing weight so quickly. Ugh, the flashbacks are horrible & it only happens with the fall feeling in the air.

I decided to volunteer for the World Equestrian games in September/October in hopes that volunteering for that would help keep my mind so busy there wouldn't be room for flashbacks. Then I found out that they assigned me to the decoration crew for all the planting & flower arrangements for each event which was even better than I could have ever hoped for . Praying that this will give me at least a few months of break this year. Psychologist thought it was a good idea when I told her about it.