Crystal, I think you should do only what you can and leave the rest. I know its hard but you got feelings too and they are important. So go with how you feel and do ONLY what youhave to and leave the rest. Wait till you see your T and in the mean time you gotta take care of you.

I dont know if it helps but here is a hug from each and everyone of us girls

((((((((((((((crystal))))))))))))))))))