I can't live in the now because I feel threatened in the now by death every second that something is going to happen to me my kids or family any second and I am braced for tragedy constantly

and these "intrusive memories" are really freaking me out

I dont want to have them but they keep coming to me triggered by any and every thing no matter how small or insignificant

does anyone else get these?

and they are not bad memories but good ones to where I want to go back and relive them