Eileen2010,

Tell those voices to CAN it.
You need to take care of you right now... out of a place of self-care. This is what you deserve. You deserve love.
Those negative voices are the depression talking.
I urge you to pick up that phone and simply call your new T and be totally honest. Tell him exactly how you are feeling.
(Anyway, this is his job).
YOU DESERVE TO FEEL BETTER. Please be gentle with yourself. Find that small place within yourself to let go of the constant attacking. Would you allow this kind of attack to go on toward anyone else here at PC? It is not meant for you either. Take a deep breath, let it go and call your T, that is what they are there for.

E