thanks something strange happened today.

My clinic called because I scheduled that appointment for a change in meds. They are doing a program to help with depression, where you're assigned a care team that goes between you and your dr to keep you healthy. Anyway, she asked if I was doing okay and I told her I wasn't. So she told me to contact my clinic RN and ask my dr to put me on something else. I wasn't sure they could do that without me going in. So I messaged the Dr and told him I couldn't handle being off meds but the wellbutrin is causing some pretty bad side effects that I can't handle. Within a couple hours he called me and sent over a prescription for Celexa. Which is what I have been on before for a few years and tried taking myself off of it in April in hopes to handle the depression without meds.

Yes- horrible idea. I need to face the fact that I'll be on meds for life most likely. But I feel like I can breath a sigh of relief knowing I am back on meds that do help. It's not as good for depression but really helps the anxiety, I think being in therapy + the right meds now will help the depression, instead of just trying to deal with the CSA on my own. I only tried the Wellbutrin because I was on something else that I can't take with an SSRI, but I told him I was more than willing to stop that med if he put me back on celexa. I hate being on meds, but I hate, hating myself even more.