Thanks guys!

@zooropa - thanks! I'll check that out for more ideas

@perna - you're right, I already do a lot of the things Eileen mentioned to self-soothe instinctively! I guess the problem really is, how do I stop searching for 'mothering' (that safe feeling we are supposed to get from a mother's love) from others given that I intellectually know I won't get it, but need to give it to myself? (that's a rhetorical question I guess)

@eileen2010 - thanks for your suggestions! I've never had contact with T between sessions (she works through my University counselling service) and we had agreed to go fortnightly, but then we missed 5wks with hols and now my next appt isnt for another 5wks for some reason (no I didn't ask) so I feel like I have to figure this stuff out on my own (with PC help!). Which begs the question - what am I seeing T for?!

Thanks for all your help guys!

*Willow*