Woo! Hoo!

Day five. Had a moment this morning, my heart lept in my throat. My brain seems trained to keep tabs on my phone for texts, just out of the corner of my eye, ya know? Left work this morning and it lit up, and joy filled me. i thought it was him, but no it was a reminder to go to the dentist today. It made me realize how weak i really am, even tho' i am trying to be strong.

This evening when i woke up, it was the same feeling. Checking my phone for texts again. Gosh dang these blasted cell phones! They've got us trained!

But, my only recourse to brooding, ruminating, and getting the blah's is to take action.
So I got out of the house, ran errands and went to a meeting before work. Lo and behold, my mood changed from negative to positive in 3 short hours! Amazing!

Have been reading the forums twice daily, and this helps keep me in check. Thanks to everyone for posting, it helps me stay strong.