I'm 15, I have a false image of who I am apparently. I think I'm fat, or at least getting there, (110 pounds, couch potato, a bit ill proportioned, I don't think I actually ever lost my "baby fat") I think I'm mean, a horrible person, undeserving of anyone's love or affection, I don't feel very pretty, or a very interesting person.

But they (my boyfriend, my best friend, and the number of boys who have a crush on me) think I'm everything the opposite of that. That I'm really attractive, that I'm sweet, kind, and extremely deserving. I don't understand.. I can't see that all in myself.

It's not that I lack self-confidence. I can go out with my head held high and be proud of who I am, that I don't care if I'm mean or kinda fat or anything.. But the person I'm proud of, who I think I am, is a different person from the girl everyone else sees.

It doesn't make any sense. Maybe it's because I'm just depressed, or just because I'm a teenager. But it's hard for me to believe them when they say those things about me. It's hard to see the good in a lot of things for me actually.. How am I supposed to believe them?