so close, so ****ing close.
I can feel it eating all I am as a person and just absolutely destroying all this pseudo progress I've convinced myself and others I've made. I'm so alone, so so alone and the only person who claims is there isn't there at all, if anything it feels they are the enemy. They say nice things once in a while and never back it up. I feel like I am not even significant enough to listen or pay any attention to.....

Oh god I'm so ****ed in the head. What am I going to do? I don't belong anywhere and I hate everything and everyone, I'm so lost...