everyone is gone , except 2 brothers in florida, who i jst speak to on the phone , once and awhile...felling real down again..and I see no light right now...but hopefully the medication will help and i am just trying to keep my chin above water right now...all my so-called friends at work, went behind my back, and told ever=one at work about my trip to germany...now ever one is coming up to me out of the blue, Hows GErmany ?....I had enough of this...and i am trying to avoid conversations with everyone, but i feel this puts me back in the shell...i wish i just had 1 good friend who i can relate to...and maybe hang out with, to take my mind of things...but alas like the story of my life..it goes and goes...and i am still on my couch wallowing in self=pity..i am a real mess....