It has been good to read your postings. I feel a little less "friekish." I have a psych, therapist, and group leader. I take meds. I call the hotlines. I go to the E.R. I still find myself waiting for any excuse to overdose and die. Yes the Doc's all know this.

A good day is when I only think about killing myself in the evening. A bad day is when it interferes with work. The weekends just blow.

I kinda feel like , "Why bother trying so hard?' Why am I not allowed to just die? What's the big deal?

Cynthia Ryan