Sunlight,
You are singing my song. I have been free and clear of my ex for five days, thanks to this site. The last four weeks of breaking up, getting back together was to put it mildly, not good for either of us. We escalated to the point of saying some ugly things to each other, like, "Go f**k who you want to, I don't care!" which was a lie, but... Anyway, long story short, we are or that is, we were both part of the same social circle. But, now I have made my own circle and it is okay. But, during that period in-between? I just wanted him to go away! I just wished or thought that is some divine accident happened to him, maybe the universe would be a better place. I am not proud of this, but... I also thought at the time, that I would never get over him. I could not imagine my life with him or without him. I felt stuck. Now, five days later after absolutely no contact whatsoever, the thoughts are gone. I know this doesn't qualify as intrusive thoughts or whatever, I just wanted you to know you are not alone in obsessing about one person in particular! I prefer to call it a short period of well-deserved hatred from which I recovered! The cravings to contact him, however, are still intermittent and ongoing. So,I will keep coming back.