Lately I just feel sooo alone no matter what I do. I've actually been going out a lot just to drink and b around people and I know that's bad. But at the time it feels sooo good. Then I come home to an empty apartment and its worse then when I left. No matter what I do I can't hide from my depression or anger. I'm starting to het mad for no reason all the time then ill just get super sad n cry. I feel as though something is very wrong with me and no longer know what to do. I hate not having any family where I live but when I am around them I feel worse then when I am alone. Maybe I'm just ment to b alone in this world....I don't see it getting any better soon. Its just I dunno what to do anymore I am sooo confused and I know drinking isn't the answer and comming from a home where both parents were alcoholics and fought all the time I really can see its wrong but again it feels great at the time......