I have always felt that way about my outer appearance. I am now 38yrs. old and can't see the light yet. I think even then the only thing I thought beautiful of myself is how I was there for everyone else. You should keep in mind that even now take care of yourself and keep in mind that it is not what is on the outside, but what you are on the inside. because a person that is beautiful on the outside but very cruel and uncaring will be seen as an ugly person. So if you are proud of who you are on the inside then it shows on the outisde, and that is who you are, and these people will see that along with your outer beauty.